Why Am I So Afraid of Gray Hair?

I guess this day was going to come sometime. I was battling gray hair seeping into my beard for a long time. Today was the first day when I noticed that the gray has intruded almost completely into my beard. I think I'm going to shave tomorrow, and that has me thinking about why I'm so fixated on my beard. I think it's only about one thing: I'm single. I mean, remember my Dad going gray at the same age as I am. But he was married and had an eight year old son, and two other kids! Me, I have had no success with much of anthing, especially women. I'm certainly not married and I certainly don't have any children. And I'm going gray. In fact, my whole face has gone essentially gray. And it was only four years ago that my Uncle looked at me and made the proclomation that I was going gray becuase (I think) he saw the couple of gray threads on my face. And I'm not even going gray. I'm going white. I'm skipping the whole gray thing. My dad, when he turned gray, turned this glorious shade of silver. Then, later, he turned whte. I'm just turning white. This sucks. And I'm definitely not going to get a girl, now.